1. |
unspoken words
04:06
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It wasn't always easy
Growing up we had our fights
Though we wouldn't say it
We wanted to play nice
I can safely say we're friends
And that I love you too
But years ago that wouldn't happen
Because I didn't get you
Oh, it's complicated
And I need to say it
Cause time is fading away
I should've said it sooner
Who knows what in the future
But now I need you to know
That I love you
You know it's true
You don't need to say it back to me
Because I know you do
And I get it now
You weren't allowed
The same life
That you've so gracefully endowed
I'm happy with it all now
We both had to grow and learn
To understand each other
And with patience we took turns
I'm sorry for my anger
I was just too young to know
That cause of your exterior
And just what you wouldn't show
Oh, it's complicated
And I need to say it
Cause time is fading away
I should've said it sooner
Who knows what in the future
But now I need you to know
That I love you
You know it's true
You don't need to say it back to me
Because I know you do
And I get it now
You weren't allowed
The same life
That you've so gracefully endowed
Oh, I love you
You love me too
Unspoken words are preferred
But it's the truth
I'll shift the tide
Leave windows wide
We are the start, our change of heart
Will be our guide
Oh, I love you
You know it's true
You don't need to say it back to me
Because I know you do
I do
I know you do
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2. |
prom dress
03:17
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I'm nearing the end of my fourth year
I feel like I've been lacking, crying too many tears
Everyone seemed to say, It was so great
But did I miss out, was it a huge mistake
I can't help the fact I like to be alone
It might sound kinda sad but that's just what I seem to know
I tend to handle things usually by myself
And I can't ever seem to try and ask for help
I'm sitting here, crying in my prom dress
I'd be the prom queen if crying was a contest
Make-up is running down, feelings are all around
How did I get here? I need to know
I guess I maybe had a couple expectations
Thought I'd get to them, but no I didn't
I guess I thought that prom was gonna be fun
Now I'm sitting on the floor and all I want to do is run
I keep collections of maps upon my wall
To try to stop myself from revealing it all
Affecting others is the last thing I would do
I keep to myself though I want to break through
I hold so many small regrets
And what ifs down inside my head
Some confidence it couldn't hurt me
My demeanor is often misread
I'm sitting here, crying in my prom dress
I'd be the prom queen if crying was a contest
Make-up is running down, feelings are all around
How did I get here? I need to know
I guess I maybe had a couple expectations
Thought I'd get to them, but no I didn't
I guess I thought that prom was gonna be fun
Now I'm sitting on the floor and all I want to do is run
All I wanna do is run
All I wanna do is run
All I wanna do is run
I'm sitting here, crying in my prom dress
I'd be the prom queen if crying was a contest
Make-up is running down, feelings are all around
How did I get here? I need to know
I guess I maybe had a couple expectations
Thought I'd get to them, but no I didn't
I guess I thought that prom was gonna be fun
Now I'm sitting on the floor and all I want to do is run
All I wanna do is run
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3. |
suffice
03:17
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I keep sitting here waiting for something
But I know nothing has happened
Yes, I know nothing will happen
But I'll keep sitting here waiting for you
Though I won't do much about it
No I don't do much about it
Cause, I have only loved without confession
I'd rather settle for a never ending stream of self-questioning
And you are just another
That I'll lose because I didn't want to bother
And how sad
Is it that
I suffice for friendship
I've never been good at being honest
Or at least with my feelings
No I'd have a hard time dealing
I've never quite gotten just how one
Could be so brave and oh so bold
To share their love at ten years old
Cause, I have only loved without confession
I'd rather settle for a never ending stream of self-questioning
And you are just another
That I'll lose because I didn't want to bother
And how sad
Is it that
I suffice for friendship
Though I've longed to be that kind of person
Who doesn't care of feel a burden
But no, I haven't gotten there yet
But I hope one day I'll find myself
Loving another so much I'll share with the other
How I feel
Cause, I have only loved without confession
I'd rather settle for a never ending stream of self-questioning
And you are just another
That I'll lose because I didn't want to bother
And how sad
Is it that
I suffice for friendship
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4. |
blame game
03:29
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I thought
That it was the last time
That'd I'd fallen for someone like you
Who don't care about all the things that I would do for you
And I know
That it's not the first time
That I've given so much away
To be left with someone who just won't stay
And I am feeling worn
Waiting to find someone
Who can make me feel warm
And you
I think knew
I put my heart into us
And you cracked it in two
And I saw
You losing interest
I couldn't bare to think of the thought
That you'd up and leave to be so distraught
And I heard
You say your goodbye
But denial is my greatest skill
Bending the truth to fit wishes of will
And I am feeling worn
Waiting to find someone
Who can make me feel warm
And you
I think knew
I put my heart into us
And you cracked it in two
But i'm so sorry
To play games of blame
It can be easier to say it's your fault
Than facing the lack of gestalt
And I'm aware
that it's my own baggage
But please let me plead I'll shut up but I just
Need you to let me have this
And I am feeling worn
Waiting to find someone
Who can make me feel warm
And you
I think knew
I put my heart into us
And I was the one to crack it in two
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5. |
high & dry
03:39
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Throwing empty threats
Across at me in passing and I thought
That you had grown on up
But now I see you've been acting
So childish and immature
You hurt me with your words
Called me a friend and played pretend
But you've got it all backwards
And I know
That when all you wanna do is hurt me
And you'll see
There's little reward in stinging me like a bee
I've seen your glare your nasty looks
Plotting scare after scare
Don't come for me I'll fight right back
It's not fun if you don't play fair
Oh me
Oh my
Not gonna let this one by
Oh me
Oh my
Karma's got you high and dry
Maybe you slipped away
With your nasty words in the past
But oh not I
I've taken my share of shots
And I swear I will be your last
So unaware and ignorant
I swear you choose to ignore
The subtle hints and warnings
That you feel aren't called for
And I know
That when all you wanna do is hurt me
And you'll see
There's little reward in stinging me like a bee
I've seen your glare your nasty looks
Plotting scare after scare
Don't come for me I'll fight right back
It's not fun if you don't play fair
Oh me
Oh my
Not gonna let this one by
Oh me
Oh my
Karma's got you high and dry
And I thought
We could make it work
And I wanted
To give you a chance
But you just threw it all away
So now, I'm gonna hold my stance
And I know
That when all you wanna do is hurt me
And you'll see
There's little reward in stinging me like a bee
I've seen your glare your nasty looks
Plotting scare after scare
Don't come for me I'll fight right back
It's not fun if you don't play fair
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6. |
my ted talk
02:32
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My therapist once asked me
If I wanted to be in love
And I answered back to her
I guess, maybe, kind of....
I mean it doesn't sound like something
That I'd really dislike
But then again
I don't even really know what true love feels like
I write these songs
Singing like I'm an expert
Teaching love in a lecture
A broken heart collector
I'm fooling myself
Over something I don't know
Putting on a big show
A single clap from the back row
I don't know anything
Bout the topic I so choose to falsely go and muse
I'm a farce of a king
Writing love songs all about things I've yet to try on out
I'm shameful of my lacking life
It feels like I've been left behind
I missed out on my chances
To feel how love is blind
I know that I have got some time
So why feel rushed if there's no need
But part of me just wants to know
What I'm missing... do you agree?
I write these songs
Singing like I'm an expert
Teaching love in a lecture
A broken heart collector
I'm fooling myself
Over something I don't know
Putting on a big show
A single clap from the back row
I don't know anything
Bout the topic I so choose to falsely go and muse
I'm a farce of a king
Writing love songs all about things I've yet to try on out
I write these songs
Singing like I'm an expert
Teaching love in a lecture
A broken heart collector
I'm fooling myself
Over something I don't know
Putting on a big show
A single clap from the back row
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7. |
seasonal depression
02:36
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I just don't see a whole lot of sun
And lately I just can't seem to have any fun I look outside my window
It's so dark I feel my eyes begin to close
Seasonal depression's
Got me sleeping off the days
And I've wasted all my time feeling grey
When the sun peeks out I sit outside
To bask of my tiny bit of light
To warm, the cold that I feel inside
Been locked up in here
With the rain coming down
I tried to fool myself
To lift up my frown
But a cup of tea and a nap don't solve my problems
I don't like LA
Cept for tacos and Venice
But God I would move
Get some rays and play tennis
And tell my Lyft driver to turn up the volume
Seasonal depression's
Got me sleeping off the days
And I've wasted all my time feeling grey
When the sun peaks out I sit outside
To bask of my tiny bit of light
To warm, the cold that I feel inside
We're all just trying to by
Searching desperately for bit of blue in the sky Sometimes it's hard to wake on up
It takes more than loads of coffee in your cup
Cause, seasonal depression's
Got us sleeping off the days
And we've wasted all our time feeling grey
When the sun peeks out we sit outside
To bask of our tiny bit of light
To warm, the cold that we feel inside
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8. |
untitled
03:02
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We grew apart
I watched you from afar
As your wings began to grow
I had to trust you on your own
I couldn't believe
But I couldn't disagree
That our time has phased on out
A new chapter's brought about
I just feel alone
And I'm learning to be okay all on my own
It's hard to picture life without you
Time moves on, you fade away, but I'll make it through
Oh I'll make it through
Oh I'll make it through
I tend to forget
That I shouldn't
People come and then they go
At this point I should know
But I'll cherish the memories
And retell the stories
Though you're gone I won't forget you
There's just times where I feel blue
And I've felt alone
But I've learned to okay all on my own
It's hard to picture life without you
Time moves you fade away but I'll make it through
Yeah, I'll make it through
Yeah, I'll make it through
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9. |
dream of you
03:54
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I had a dream about you last night
At first I took it as a sign
Some things are better left alone
So I told myself it's fine
Our time was short and sweet and simple Uncomplicated by the past
Exchanging words in points of quiet
Unaware of who'd talk last
We gelled quickly and in seconds
I though that'd known you for years
You'd think we'd have lasted longer
But I wouldn't shed a tear
I had a dream about you last night
Your figure warm and far away
I had a dream about you last night
Eyes shut hoping you'd stay
But I think fondly of our time
Exchanging laughs and songs alike
You were the sugar to my sour
A sheer joy so childlike
And now I see from a distance
I watch you flourish from afar
Sending thoughts and all well wishes
Writing this song on my guitar
I had a dream about you last night
Your figure warm and far away
I had a dream about you last night
Eyes shut hoping you'd stay
And I still think about you sometimes
Pondering what it could've been
But I would never trade the time we had
For all of that was a win
I had a dream about you last night
And you said your last goodbye
I woke up to wipe my tears
Although I said never cry
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10. |
late nights
03:16
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Late nights are for lonely people
Lying away hardly laying peaceful
My mind is restless with the thoughts of you
And all the things you do I can hardly close my eyes
Under the glow of the brightest moonlight
My heart it rests on a pillow of white
My heart aches with every thought of you
And all the things you do I can't help but hold my breathe
I am captivated by you
And I am so in love with the things you do
But, late nights are for lonely people
Lying away hardly laying peaceful
My mind is restless with the thoughts of you
And all the things you do I can hardly close my eyes
I wish that I could stand next to you
But I'm to scared of what you may do
Would rejection come and slam me down
I can't help by frown by the thought that we'd be done
Would my feelings go and scare you away
I'd be so sorry for the things that I'd say
So, I guess I'll just lay here instead
Lying in my bed, pondering the things you do
Cause I am captivated by you
And I am so in love with the things you do
But, late nights are for lonely people
Lying away hardly laying peaceful
My mind is restless with the thoughts of you
And all the things you do
I can hardly close my eyes
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11. |
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It wasn't always easy
Growing up we had our fights
Though we wouldn't say it
We wanted to play nice
I can safely say we're friends
And that I love you too
But years ago that wouldn't happen
Because I didn't get you
Oh, it's complicated
And I need to say it
Cause time is fading away
I should've said it sooner
Who knows what in the future
But now I need you to know
That I love you
You know it's true
You don't need to say it back to me
Because I know you do
And I get it now
You weren't allowed
The same life
That you've so gracefully endowed
I'm happy with it all now
We both had to grow and learn
To understand each other
And with patience we took turns
I'm sorry for my anger
I was just too young to know
That cause of your exterior
And just what you wouldn't show
Oh, it's complicated
And I need to say it
Cause time is fading away
I should've said it sooner
Who knows what in the future
But now I need you to know
That I love you
You know it's true
You don't need to say it back to me
Because I know you do
And I get it now
You weren't allowed
The same life
That you've so gracefully endowed
Oh, I love you
You love me too
Unspoken words are preferred
But it's the truth
I'll shift the tide
Leave windows wide
We are the start, our change of heart
Will be our guide
Oh, I love you
You know it's true
You don't need to say it back to me
Because I know you do
I do
I know you do
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12. |
prom dress (acoustic)
04:23
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I'm nearing the end of my fourth year
I feel like I've been lacking, crying too many tears
Everyone seemed to say, It was so great
But did I miss out, was it a huge mistake
I can't help the fact I like to be alone
It might sound kinda sad but that's just what I seem to know
I tend to handle things usually by myself
And I can't ever seem to try and ask for help
I'm sitting here, crying in my prom dress
I'd be the prom queen if crying was a contest
Make-up is running down, feelings are all around
How did I get here? I need to know
I guess I maybe had a couple expectations
Thought I'd get to them, but no I didn't
I guess I thought that prom was gonna be fun
Now I'm sitting on the floor and all I want to do is run
I keep collections of maps upon my wall
To try to stop myself from revealing it all
Affecting others is the last thing I would do
I keep to myself though I want to break through
I hold so many small regrets
And what ifs down inside my head
Some confidence it couldn't hurt me
My demeanor is often misread
I'm sitting here, crying in my prom dress
I'd be the prom queen if crying was a contest
Make-up is running down, feelings are all around
How did I get here? I need to know
I guess I maybe had a couple expectations
Thought I'd get to them, but no I didn't
I guess I thought that prom was gonna be fun
Now I'm sitting on the floor and all I want to do is run
All I wanna do is run
All I wanna do is run
All I wanna do is run
I'm sitting here, crying in my prom dress
I'd be the prom queen if crying was a contest
Make-up is running down, feelings are all around
How did I get here? I need to know
I guess I maybe had a couple expectations
Thought I'd get to them, but no I didn't
I guess I thought that prom was gonna be fun
Now I'm sitting on the floor and all I want to do is run
All I wanna do is run
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13. |
suffice (acoustic)
03:45
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I keep sitting here waiting for something
But I know nothing has happened
Yes, I know nothing will happen
But I'll keep sitting here waiting for you
Though I won't do much about it
No I don't do much about it
Cause, I have only loved without confession
I'd rather settle for a never ending stream of self-questioning
And you are just another
That I'll lose because I didn't want to bother
And how sad
Is it that
I suffice for friendship
I've never been good at being honest
Or at least with my feelings
No I'd have a hard time dealing
I've never quite gotten just how one
Could be so brave and oh so bold
To share their love at ten years old
Cause, I have only loved without confession
I'd rather settle for a never ending stream of self-questioning
And you are just another
That I'll lose because I didn't want to bother
And how sad
Is it that
I suffice for friendship
Though I've longed to be that kind of person
Who doesn't care of feel a burden
But no, I haven't gotten there yet
But I hope one day I'll find myself
Loving another so much I'll share with the other
How I feel
Cause, I have only loved without confession
I'd rather settle for a never ending stream of self-questioning
And you are just another
That I'll lose because I didn't want to bother
And how sad
Is it that
I suffice for friendship
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14. |
blame game (acoustic)
03:55
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I thought
That it was the last time
That'd I'd fallen for someone like you
Who don't care about all the things that I would do for you
And I know
That it's not the first time
That I've given so much away
To be left with someone who just won't stay
And I am feeling worn
Waiting to find someone
Who can make me feel warm
And you
I think knew
I put my heart into us
And you cracked it in two
And I saw
You losing interest
I couldn't bare to think of the thought
That you'd up and leave to be so distraught
And I heard
You say your goodbye
But denial is my greatest skill
Bending the truth to fit wishes of will
And I am feeling worn
Waiting to find someone
Who can make me feel warm
And you
I think knew
I put my heart into us
And you cracked it in two
But i'm so sorry
To play games of blame
It can be easier to say it's your fault
Than facing the lack of gestalt
And I'm aware
that it's my own baggage
But please let me plead I'll shut up but I just
Need you to let me have this
And I am feeling worn
Waiting to find someone
Who can make me feel warm
And you
I think knew
I put my heart into us
And I was the one to crack it in two
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15. |
high & dry (acoustic)
03:43
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Throwing empty threats
Across at me in passing and I thought
That you had grown on up
But now I see you've been acting
So childish and immature
You hurt me with your words
Called me a friend and played pretend
But you've got it all backwards
And I know
That when all you wanna do is hurt me
And you'll see
There's little reward in stinging me like a bee
I've seen your glare your nasty looks
Plotting scare after scare
Don't come for me I'll fight right back
It's not fun if you don't play fair
Oh me
Oh my
Not gonna let this one by
Oh me
Oh my
Karma's got you high and dry
Maybe you slipped away
With your nasty words in the past
But oh not I
I've taken my share of shots
And I swear I will be your last
So unaware and ignorant
I swear you choose to ignore
The subtle hints and warnings
That you feel aren't called for
And I know
That when all you wanna do is hurt me
And you'll see
There's little reward in stinging me like a bee
I've seen your glare your nasty looks
Plotting scare after scare
Don't come for me I'll fight right back
It's not fun if you don't play fair
Oh me
Oh my
Not gonna let this one by
Oh me
Oh my
Karma's got you high and dry
And I thought
We could make it work
And I wanted
To give you a chance
But you just threw it all away
So now, I'm gonna hold my stance
And I know
That when all you wanna do is hurt me
And you'll see
There's little reward in stinging me like a bee
I've seen your glare your nasty looks
Plotting scare after scare
Don't come for me I'll fight right back
It's not fun if you don't play fair
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16. |
my ted talk (acoustic)
02:32
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My therapist once asked me
If I wanted to be in love
And I answered back to her
I guess, maybe, kind of....
I mean it doesn't sound like something
That I'd really dislike
But then again
I don't even really know what true love feels like
I write these songs
Singing like I'm an expert
Teaching love in a lecture
A broken heart collector
I'm fooling myself
Over something I don't know
Putting on a big show
A single clap from the back row
I don't know anything
Bout the topic I so choose to falsely go and muse
I'm a farce of a king
Writing love songs all about things I've yet to try on out
I'm shameful of my lacking life
It feels like I've been left behind
I missed out on my chances
To feel how love is blind
I know that I have got some time
So why feel rushed if there's no need
But part of me just wants to know
What I'm missing... do you agree?
I write these songs
Singing like I'm an expert
Teaching love in a lecture
A broken heart collector
I'm fooling myself
Over something I don't know
Putting on a big show
A single clap from the back row
I don't know anything
Bout the topic I so choose to falsely go and muse
I'm a farce of a king
Writing love songs all about things I've yet to try on out
I write these songs
Singing like I'm an expert
Teaching love in a lecture
A broken heart collector
I'm fooling myself
Over something I don't know
Putting on a big show
A single clap from the back row
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17. |
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I just don't see a whole lot of sun
And lately I just can't seem to have any fun I look outside my window
It's so dark I feel my eyes begin to close
Seasonal depression's
Got me sleeping off the days
And I've wasted all my time feeling grey
When the sun peeks out I sit outside
To bask of my tiny bit of light
To warm, the cold that I feel inside
Been locked up in here
With the rain coming down
I tried to fool myself
To lift up my frown
But a cup of tea and a nap don't solve my problems
I don't like LA
Cept for tacos and Venice
But God I would move
Get some rays and play tennis
And tell my Lyft driver to turn up the volume
Seasonal depression's
Got me sleeping off the days
And I've wasted all my time feeling grey
When the sun peaks out I sit outside
To bask of my tiny bit of light
To warm, the cold that I feel inside
We're all just trying to by
Searching desperately for bit of blue in the sky Sometimes it's hard to wake on up
It takes more than loads of coffee in your cup
Cause, seasonal depression's
Got us sleeping off the days
And we've wasted all our time feeling grey
When the sun peeks out we sit outside
To bask of our tiny bit of light
To warm, the cold that we feel inside
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18. |
untitled (acoustic)
03:14
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We grew apart
I watched you from afar
As your wings began to grow
I had to trust you on your own
I couldn't believe
But I couldn't disagree
That our time has phased on out
A new chapter's brought about
I just feel alone
And I'm learning to be okay all on my own
It's hard to picture life without you
Time moves on, you fade away, but I'll make it through
Oh I'll make it through
Oh I'll make it through
I tend to forget
That I shouldn't
People come and then they go
At this point I should know
But I'll cherish the memories
And retell the stories
Though you're gone I won't forget you
There's just times where I feel blue
And I've felt alone
But I've learned to okay all on my own
It's hard to picture life without you
Time moves you fade away but I'll make it through
Yeah, I'll make it through
Yeah, I'll make it through
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19. |
dream of you (acoustic)
03:37
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I had a dream about you last night
At first I took it as a sign
Some things are better left alone
So I told myself it's fine
Our time was short and sweet and simple Uncomplicated by the past
Exchanging words in points of quiet
Unaware of who'd talk last
We gelled quickly and in seconds
I though that'd known you for years
You'd think we'd have lasted longer
But I wouldn't shed a tear
I had a dream about you last night
Your figure warm and far away
I had a dream about you last night
Eyes shut hoping you'd stay
But I think fondly of our time
Exchanging laughs and songs alike
You were the sugar to my sour
A sheer joy so childlike
And now I see from a distance
I watch you flourish from afar
Sending thoughts and all well wishes
Writing this song on my guitar
I had a dream about you last night
Your figure warm and far away
I had a dream about you last night
Eyes shut hoping you'd stay
And I still think about you sometimes
Pondering what it could've been
But I would never trade the time we had
For all of that was a win
I had a dream about you last night
And you said your last goodbye
I woke up to wipe my tears
Although I said never cry
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20. |
late nights (acoustic)
02:55
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Late nights are for lonely people
Lying away hardly laying peaceful
My mind is restless with the thoughts of you
And all the things you do I can hardly close my eyes
Under the glow of the brightest moonlight
My heart it rests on a pillow of white
My heart aches with every thought of you
And all the things you do I can't help but hold my breathe
I am captivated by you
And I am so in love with the things you do
But, late nights are for lonely people
Lying away hardly laying peaceful
My mind is restless with the thoughts of you
And all the things you do I can hardly close my eyes
I wish that I could stand next to you
But I'm to scared of what you may do
Would rejection come and slam me down
I can't help by frown by the thought that we'd be done
Would my feelings go and scare you away
I'd be so sorry for the things that I'd say
So, I guess I'll just lay here instead
Lying in my bed, pondering the things you do
Cause I am captivated by you
And I am so in love with the things you do
But, late nights are for lonely people
Lying away hardly laying peaceful
My mind is restless with the thoughts of you
And all the things you do
I can hardly close my eyes
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